I know my Alphabet. :)

I saw this on my cousin Buffy's blog here - http://passionatedesign.blogspot.com/2011/06/from-to-z-youll-learn-more-about-me.html - and I thought I'd give it a whack! Here we go!!!!!!

A. Age: 26. Still young baby!!!

B. Bed size: Full

C. Chore that you hate: Dishes. How I loathe them.

D. Dogs: None, not planning on getting one either.

E. Essential start to your day: I have to have some snuggle time with my man. Then I go tinkle. :)

F. Favorite color: I enjoy many colors, but blue/green seems to be my favorite right now.

G. Gold or Silver: Silver. I do like white and platinum gold though.

H. Height: 5' 1.2" Never leave out that half inch. NEVER!!!

I. Instruments you play: Piano and Kazoo. I can jam it out on a Kazoo buddy!

J. Job title: None. I'm titleless.

K. Kids: None...yet!!!

L. Live: Yes I live. Oh where? Oh...Michigan. Power to the snow!

M. Mother’s name: Kate

N. Nicknames: Lots. It seems people like to nickname me. Sara Bara, Saree, Sven, Bertha, Cooter. Way too many to continue on with.

O. Overnight hospital stays: In the ER, yes.

P. Pet peeve: Loud chewing.

Q. Quote from a movie: "My heart is and always will be....yours" - Sense and Sensibility.

R. Right or left handed: Right

S. Siblings: Yep! Brothers and Sisters, all older.

T. Time you wake up: Whenever I awaken.

U. Underwear: None! hahahahaha Ummm, just normal undies.

V. Vegetable you hate: Beets. Blach.

W. What makes you run late: Myself and Matthew.

X. X-Rays you’ve had: Teeth, Chest and Abdomen.

Y. Yummy food that you make: Black Magic Cake. Best chocolate cake ever.

Z. Zoo animal: White Tigers

Well, that was fun. If you have a blog give this a try. If not, feel free to leave it in the comments. Although, that's gonna be a long comment, but I'm okay with it.

Thoughts I've thunk.

Thunk. I like that word. It's fun! Anyways, I've been thinking of some things lately and here are the things I've thunked. lol 

I'd like to learn how to sew and knit. I saw some really cool patterns for bags that I really want, but I need to know how to sew a lot more than I can now. Basically I can sew on a button....sorta. So, I'd like to expand on that 'skill' of mine. And then I'd really like to know how to knit! I think it would be cool to just sit down, pop in a movie and knit away! I could make scarves, sweaters, hats, gloves, undies! Well, maybe not undies. That may be a tiddle to itchie. 

Next thought! I really want a flip cam. Why you ask (or didn't, but I'ma gonna tell you anyways)? Matthew and I are wanting to start up a new YouTube channel and it would be totally awesome if we had a better camera. We are going to try and put up a video each Friday and they will be Matthew playing the guitar and me singing! So creative, huh? lol We'll do some cover songs and then some songs of our own. Basically we want to sing and glorify Jesus and use our gifts for Him! We're still trying to think of a name for that channel too. 

Even more thoughtness! This one is a little bit more serious. I really, really, really, really, REALLY need to amp up my game in losing weight! The truth is I like food and I'm lazy. Not a real good combo. I've gotta find an exercise that I actually enjoy doing. I feel so much better after I exercise, but it's just getting to exercise that is the struggle! Grrr. With my gallbladder being all evil to me I have actually lost weight because I've been on a extremely low fat to no fat diet. But, I'm really looking forward to being able to eat food again. Applesauce and Jello get old real fast. But, at least I have food to eat and for that I'm thankful!

Next thought. I've been thinking lately about Matthew and I's 10th Wedding Anniversary. Now, it wont be here till 2013, but I'm still planning things out for it now. We are going to renew our vows and have a little ceremony, but what we really would like to do is have a ceremony with Matthews family. They weren't able to attend our actual Wedding, so we have always wanted to do a ceremony with them. A trip to Aussie or New Zealand would be a nice Anniversary gift to ourselves. 

Last thought (I think). I use exclamation points and "lol" way too often. But, I'm probably not gonna stop!

Last thought (I was mistaken above. Don't hate me.) I really like hamsters. They're adorable and I want one!

Thanks for checking in on my little blog. If you read my past posts it probably seems like I'm bipolar. I'm not......just human.

And here is a song that is stuck in my head!

Friends.

I haven't wrote in this blog for ages. I really don't know why. I guess cause I have nothing interesting to say. But, I have something to say now. Really, just something I've been thinking of for a long time and feeling.

Friends. Sometimes I wonder if having them is even worth it.

I'm not saying that I've always been the best of friend, and that I've never done wrong. Believe me, I know just how bad of a friend I have been before and I've done things that I'm ashamed of. One thing I can say for myself is that I always apologize for any hurt that I may have caused, if it be knowingly or unknowingly.

It seems to me like life would be so much easier, and so much more enjoyable if I didn't take the time to have these 'friends'. It seems people automatically are willing to choose to  believe bad things about me, based on what other people say, never speaking to me.

I find myself very hesitant to become close to people, especially people who claim to be Christian. Sadly, I often find more comfort and compassion from the unsaved. Honestly, sometimes I wish that I didn't care about anyone. That my heart wouldn't instantly open up and take people in. That I wouldn't love deeply. That I wouldn't get close to anyone.

I'm tired of my heart and spirit hurting. I need freedom. I want to strive to have a heart like Jesus'. Jesus who said -

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for a friend."

Deep down I don't want to care less, and I still want to have close and meaningful relationships, I want to be willing to "lay down my life for a friend", but after crying so many tears and bearing so many hurts, it gets hard to remember that. I know friends are needed in life, and I have a very few true friends and for them I am so grateful.

This is in not a cry for attention. All this is, is me attempting to let things out, let go of things, maybe moving towards healing.